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Name: Candi
Birthday: 11/4/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: uhm , i love God , the color green , sunsets , chick flicks , the notebook , sleeping , taking pictures of people , hanging out with my friends , spending time with Lillie and Ray Ray , eating Ben and Jerrys , Rainy Days , lipgloss , puppies , reading , praying , cheetos
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
MSN: purple_monkey_89
Yahoo:  your_own_disaster809
Member Since:
7/5/2005
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| i figured id update this thing . .
welp i finally got 5 minutes to myself LOL . . well Kip and I had a *discussion* im gonna go up there sometime . . and meet his family . . and i guess we will see what happens from there . . i really do love that kid lol . . so . . him and i have been talking on the phone for like the last couple of days and everythings been going good . . we havent fought . kind of amazing lol . its good to feel kind of close to him again . . i know that we've got a long road ahead of us but we will see how things turn out . . anyways . . i went to applebees the other night with Christina Michaela and Angela . then i went home and Christina left and Kip called and we talked for a while . . . . today this guy kept calling my phone while i was asleep . . and it was a wrong number . . and when he hung up the last time he told me i was beautiful . . i have no clue who it was and i didnt recognize the number . . but he asked for someone i didnt know so oh well . . . anyways i just figured id update this thing . . my computer hasnt been messing up anymore . . but anyways . . im gonna go . .
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| Im sleepy . . today was pretty busy . . it stormed for a little while and then i had to take my cousin to work . . i ended up going there 3 times . . first to get food lol . then to bring her ibuprofen for a headache . and then to take her the house key lol . anyways . . Kip and I got into a fight again yesterday . i told him to just leave me alone . . i cant do this anymore . . i love him too much to sit here and take his crap because its just bringing me down . .he doesnt understand that telling me im slutty and a whore hurts me really bad . and the fact that he doesnt even care about me hurts even more . . if hes so happy and *doesnt care* then he can just leave me alone because im still not to that point yet . .i cant pretend like what he says and does doesnt bother me . but oh well . . since hes not in love with me that must mean that we arent meant for each other and i will move on someday . . he thinks im screwing my friend . he should know me ALOT better than that . i guess i was wrong .things were supose to be different with him . he spent all that money to come here and move here and we lasted through so many things i was sure they were different and things were gonna work but he just gave up . and now he hates me . for what i have no idea . but he will have to live with screwing up a good thing . .anyways . . my computer messed up today . it made me so mad i couldnt get it to work lol . i got another dog lol . she is a mini pin . her name is Sassy . . i dont really guess anything new is going on . . my sister leaves the end of October instead of the middle of August for Germany . . kinda nifty i guess . . i dont see what good that does our family considering shes in Delaware now lol . but oh well . . my mom got a car so the PT Cruiser is officially ALL mine lol . anyways . im gonna go . . .
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| Hey Hey . . im bored . . well i talked to Kip today . . i didnt the day before yesterday and yesterday . . and he called me and told me to get online . . because he cant really talk to me on the phone because his dad doesnt know about *us* or whatever . . anyways . so i talked to him for a little while and he just like signed offline out of no where and never came back on . . he didnt say bye or anything . i figured his computer messed up or something but he didnt call either so i doubt that was it . . i wonder when i will learn that he doesnt really want to be with me or something . i mean it feels like that . he tells me not to feel that way because its not how it is . but it STILL feels that way . am i totally stupid for thinking that things are okay when we go days without talking . .and he acts like its nothing at all ? he thinks im looking way into things when i say that it bothers me or if i get mad about it . but gosh . its not my fault . if hed put forth a little more effort to AT LEAST make me feel like i shouldnt worry about anything when we dont talk then itd be different . but he doesnt . we just fight because i feel like hes blown me off the whole time . i really do love him . and i do wish that we could be together and everything but he left me once . . why wouldnt he again . and before he moved down here he said that the relationship was getting boring because we werent *together* what makes me think he wont *feel* that way again . maybe im just hormonal . but i think its REALLY starting to kick in that hes not here . and if he comes back its not gonna be for another REALLY long time . if i knew that he was really gonna come back and that he really wanted to be with me and *wasnt just saying that * then id be totally okay with not talking to him everyday but i dont feel that way because HE doesnt make me feel that way . im sick of trying to hide the way i feel because im afraid hes gonna say everything is *over* again . like he loves to do . . . thats another thing . . everytime we get into a fight hes ready to just give up . .just like that . . . i cant help that i love him . . and i dont want to not love him . because i know how he can be . i just wish that hed make me feel like im loved ALL the time . even when we dont talk or fight . but some of the things he says hurts my feelings so bad i dont know which way is up . . i just dont understand why he cant just tell his family that he wants to be with me and tell them to get the fuck over it so i can actually talk to him more than like a couple times a week . . im not an idiot and i dont want to feel like one anymore i want him to ACT like he wants to be with me . instead of telling me . anyways . . audrey came over yesterday and we are good again . shes coming over to stay the night tonight . .kinda crazy because she hasnt been here to stay all night in a while . . i really love that girl and it just hurt that we werent that good of friends anymore . anyways i guess im gonna schudaddle . i need to burn a CD . | | |
| hey hey . . welp im bored . and sleepy . my cousin is staying with us this summer till she gets enough money to buy a car . .she is working down the road from my house . .ya know life is pretty darn confusing sometimes . . and the ppl that are close to me will understand that . . anyways im gonna go
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